Brain Dead

For the past few days, I never got the chance to write on my blog. It's funny that I was looking for something productive to do. So here I am.

I noticed that the reason why I didn't get the chance to write is that I was busy the past few days. Busy to plan my birthday which I did celebrate last October 25th. The other reason was I am hook on Grey's Anatomy. Again.

I guess my few days before my birthday, I wrote something about how I felt about myself. I read it again and I think I was too emotional when I read it so I ended up crying and laughing at the same time. My birthday was awesome. But

I felt bad that my eldest sister was not able to attend my party. She and her husband just bought a car but they couldn't use it properly because they don't have license yet. So my sister ended up bailing me again on my birthday celebration. She and her husband always talk about their car, their experiences with it, their challenges, and how they ended up buying one. For some, I would sound insecure because I don't have a car. But I think they're bragging too much about their investments. I am happy for them, really. But can we have other topics aside from that?

All in all, I was happy about my birthday celebration. I had the chance to see my other sister, brother-in-law, niece, and nephew. They spent the whole day with us. It was tiring but worth it because I got the chance to meet after a long time as we had difficulties meeting up because of the COVID-19 situation in the Philippines. My sister and my mother paid for their fare. Which is really sweet.

After celebrating my birthday, I have been on a hunt for a new job. It was not successful. I don't know why, but I was thinking because of the Covid-19 situation in the Philippines. I am currently working as an online ESL teacher but I find it challenging because I get emotional with rude students. I tried to look for other jobs like data entry, transcribing and other jobs that is related to my skills. I was not successful so I temporarily stopped looking for a job. Then I tried again last November I think. It's been a week since I have been waiting for the result because I didn't get feedback. I tried to reach out last Monday, but I didn't get any response from HR team. I was informed last Friday during my client interview that they will inform me right away whether I passed or not. On the other hand, I am still waiting until now. I am really hoping that I'll pass because it will be a great start in January 2021 if ever. Because the job is just near my house and salary is really competitive. Wish me luck!

I am a little brain dead because of the things that are happening this year. Financially and career is a total mess. However, I am still thankful that I have a job. I can imagine how other people were having trouble looking for a job these days. Whatever your situation is, let's all be thankful that we have small problems compared to other people.